The Big Thaw

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Last night, late, the ground thawed to let the heavy rains settle into the earth without impediment. I know this because the sump pump startled me, as it fired up for the first time this year. It rained all day yesterday, and will rain all day today, giving the pump a good spring workout. Thank goodness we installed the sump pump several years ago, to cope with the broken water main in front of our house. That problem was solved when the town dug up the entire street and our front yard, to replace the water mains and the road. Now the sump pump has only the spring run off to contend with.

Good news on the dog versus rat poison front; Wiggler has been given a clean bill of health! Her blood is a bit thin, but healthy, according to the blood test results. She was to be spayed, but that has been forestalled until she completely recovers. The poor puppy!

And, no surprise, the vet bills were breathtaking. Terra and Lares do not complain though, they love their dog.

I drove out to Terra’s place for a visit, and enjoyed the company of both Terra and her menagerie. She and Lares live with three cats, and two dogs; almost all of them are rescued animals who are much loved.

The 1879 Atlas for the Parry Sound District made it into the travel bag for this trip. So many of my relatives are listed in it. I managed to complete the transcription of one complete Township yesterday, and will begin another today.

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

After some discussion with the family, the “Christmas” get together looks like it will finally take place this coming weekend. The weather is predicted to be fine, the roads good, visibility good, so if all else goes well the event will take place, at last.

My last haircut was nice, but it only lasted about five weeks before becoming unmanageable. Another haircut was in order. I called the salon where Terra gets her haircut and inquired, they could schedule me for an appointment, starting in ten minutes! Now, this is the total beauty of living in an urban area, it only took me five minutes to get there, so I was early! It was time for a change, so off came my wavy locks and voila, a very short head of hair emerged. It looked great coming out of the salon, but that doesn’t mean anything. The test comes when I wash it myself, run a comb through it, and then forget about it. If it still looks good after my efforts, then it is a great cut.

The surprise was, that there was a lot more grey up there than anticipated. As the light brown locks fell to the floor, the grey began to emerge from underneath. It looks pretty good to me.

This afternoon was sunny and mild, spring was in the air. After collecting fallen branches around the yard, the pinecones on the driveway were collected in a bucket and transported to the compost in the back yard. The birds were everywhere, squabbling over the berries in the tree, swooping, and singing in a huge celebration of a sunny spring day.

Tomorrow is the big day around here; the refrigerator is due to be delivered. This is the moment I have been waiting for, the motivation for staying at the little house in the city for more than a week. I hope this one lasts a very long time!

Worldly Distractions


Attila’s World: Country House

Date: 2:00 PM EDT Wednesday 9 April 2014
Condition: Partly Cloudy
Pressure: 101.3 kPa
Visibility: 16 km
Temperature: 4.5°C
Dewpoint: -7.3°C
Humidity: 42%
Wind: W 21 km/h

My World: Little House in the City

Date: 8:00 PM EDT Wednesday 9 April 2014
Condition: Clear
Pressure: 101.3 kPa
Tendency: rising
Visibility: 24 km
Temperature: 2.7°C
Dewpoint: -3.2°C
Humidity: 65%
Wind: WSW 18 km/h


“The love of liberty is the love of others; the love of power is the love of ourselves.”
William Hazlitt


Lone leaf on spring puddle.
Leaf on spring puddle

A quiet day. It was snowing this morning. It is sunny now.

I’ve been working away at editing sources. I take breaks to have a drink of water, to stand at the window and look out at the pines dancing with the breeze, to eat a few almonds, and just to walk about in circles for a bit.

Most days I work in silence, only the small sounds of domestic life around me; the fridge cycling, the clock ticking, Mist having a little snack or a drink of water.

Today I have music playing, a Songza collection called Coffee Shop Sway, very pleasant.

And then it happened. I thawed!

I’ve been dealing with a lot of minor misery for the last few months. Winter, my former employer’s shenanigans, three government agencies to appease, working at an unpleasant location, driving on bad roads… the list goes on. When things are too much for me, as they have been, the genuine parts of my personality go on vacation. Parts of me simply cease to exist, as there is no sane environment for them to live in. It is as if my genuine self is encased in a thick layer of ice, cold and impenetrable.

So working away, with the music playing in the background, a short melodic phrase, familiar in its joy, shot through that icy shell. I stopped breathing for just a second, in shock. And then there I was, completely me, happy to be alive, happy to be myself. Joy feels like dancing with the sun, sleeping with the baby, flowing around boulders with the stream; Every cell alive, seeing the beauty in the people, in the place and in the invisible connecting strands that allow vision and awareness.

I am so grateful to be spending time in a world that deserves my respect and trust. I am so grateful to know the difference between an environment that deserves my respect and trust, and one that does not.

I have much to let go of, and I think I’ve finally sent some of it off into the universe. Bonne chance and farewell.

Worldly Distractions


1 °C
Condition: Mainly Sunny
Pressure: 101.7 kPa
Visibility: 16 km
Temperature: 1.4°
Dewpoint: -12.0°C
Humidity: 36 %
Wind: WNW 26 gust 41 km/h


“Joy is prayer – Joy is strength – Joy is love – Joy is a net of love by which you can catch souls.”
Mother Teresa
1910 – 1997

… and let them go again!