Short and Sweet

Attila has come and gone. He arrived for supper last night, we talked till midnight, collapsed into bed, and resumed our conversation in the morning over coffee. We have a lot of weighty issues to work through together right now, and it was exhausting!

We took ourselves out for Easter lunch to McDonalds, and returned to the little house to tie up as many loose ends as we could before Attila jumped into Tank and headed north for the country house. We have switched vehicles, so that I can park in the patient parking garage at the hospital where I have my appointment for my knee. Tank is too big to enter the parking garage!

The “weepy we-me”s hit both of us at the same time, it was a teary farewell. We are both very tired of living apart!

I need to stay at the little house for two or three more weeks, until I have all my health care appointments attended to and sorted out. Then I hope to head north to stay with Attila at the country house until the black flies begin to bite. At that point I plan on returning on my own to the little house in the city, for several months, until the serious biting insect season lets up. The lawn at the little house needs cutting weekly during the spring, so I will be able to get that done at least. I will have to cut a bit every day, because the whole job at one go would be far too much for me to handle. The little house sits on a double lot, there is a lot of lawn.

Attila and I are hoping for some quality time together in the summer, when he comes home from work in the evenings. It might not happen. We have our fingers crossed.

He is spending his free time, what little he will have in the next few weeks, preparing the country house for the “for sale” sign to go up on the front lawn. Maybe this year it will sell.

Worldly Distractions


Little House in the City
Date: 3:00 PM EDT Sunday 5 April 2015
Condition: Mostly Cloudy
Pressure: 102.0 kPa
Tendency: falling
Visibility: 24 km
Temperature: 3.8°C
Dewpoint: -4.4°C
Humidity: 55%
Wind: SSW 30 km/h

Country House
Date: 3:00 PM EDT Sunday 5 April 2015
Condition: Mostly Cloudy
Visibility: 16 km
Temperature: 0.5°C
Dewpoint: -7.7°C
Humidity: 54%
Wind: NW 21 km/h


“Resolve to be thyself: and know, that he who finds himself, loses his misery.”
Matthew Arnold
1822 – 1888

Slow Recovery

Monday, March 30, 2015

The flue is on its way out! Friday morning my temperature had returned to normal. I feel better every day. The cough lessens in severity every day. I still sound “stuffed up”.

It just above freezing out there today, and very, very windy. I had planned on running errands, but instead chose to spend another day bundled up and warm inside the house. Better to completely recover from this bug before risking another, or a chill.

Attila decided to drive down to see how I was doing on Saturday. He stayed overnight, and left just after lunch on Sunday. It had been three weeks since we last saw each other, so it was a special event. He did a few of the outside jobs that needed doing, so that I would not need to venture outside until I achieved complete recovery from the flu.

We had a nice dinner together, and a breakfast, and a lunch. Three shared meals, a rare treat these days. We watched a movie in the evening, but Attila fell asleep by 8:30 sitting in the chair, so I let him snooze while I finished watching the movie, then shooed him off to bed. He slept ten hours! I have always been in awe of how many hours Attila can sleep. Unless I am sick I can’t sleep that long. I wake up after six hours of sleep, occasionally seven hours, and if I am really, really, really tired, I might sleep eight hours. Attila loves his sleep, and it is well earned.

Attila has a few grand schemes in the works, if they pan out I’ll need to write about them. If they don’t pan out, I’ll need to forget about them, so I am not writing about them now.

We thought we would have a two day weekend together here at the little house in the city, over the easter holiday. Such was not to be. Attila works Saturday. He will make an overnight visit, arriving Saturday night, and leaving again in less than 24 hours. I admit to a rush of disappointment at the news. After Easter, we won’t see each other again until the end of April.

Terra and Janus have been vacationing in Panama for over a week, they will return home tomorrow. They called to say hello while Attila was here, we all had a nice chat. Terra sounds relaxed and happy, which is wonderful to hear. She was tired and worn down just before they left for their vacation. She works rotating shifts, and she has had a few non-life threatening health issues, which have been upsetting for her. They were having a wonderful time though, and loved the place where they were staying. She was missing all her pets, including Diesel, who are staying with various relatives and friends.

I have been doing some additional work on the website I recently designed. The owner was editing the site and something went wrong, it took some time to figure out what it was and get it set right. It is set right now.

Wednesday, April 2, 2015

My recovery has slowed to almost a halt, but no matter. I am no longer running a temperature, but I am cold almost all the time, the cough persists, as does the runny nose, and the headache. I am still wandering around inside the house wearing a heavy jacket and toque, otherwise I feel chilled. Turning up the thermostat doesn’t help, I need the extra clothing, and it does the job. This is completely new to me, this feeling chilled! Oh well, it could be so much worse!

I have been getting out for my daily walk, but avoiding contact with people in public places because I don’t want to catch anything else just now, and I don’t want to pass along what I have to others.

I did have to go out to the bank yesterday, needs must. I got some miserable paperwork processed at the bank, it was all just routine stuff, but had been postponed for a very long time, because I hate doing that sort of thing. It is done now!

Terra stopped by this morning. She has some personal health issues to deal with right now, very distressing for her, and for those who love her.

She said through her tears, “Sometimes you just need your Mom!” At that point we were both crying, and hugging. Life isn’t always fair, as those of us who are older, and many of us who are still young, know so well!

It isn’t life threatening, not to worry on that score, just very distressing. She will work through it though, all the rest of us can do is give her time, and lots of love and hugs.

I have an appointment with the Orthopaedic Surgeon later in April, and I will be glad when I get that sorted. I don’t anticipate any further medical intervention with the knee, but hope for a few words of advice on going forward. I will be going back to the physiotherapist again after my appointment with the Surgeon.

Every day I do the exercises the physiotherapist showed me, except one that causes shooting pains. I avoid that one! I can feel my muscles getting stronger, providing better support for those aching joints!

Worldly Distractions


Little House in The City
Date: 11:00 AM EDT Thursday 2 April 2015
Condition: Mostly Cloudy
Pressure: 101.5 kPa
Tendency: falling
Visibility: 24 km
Temperature: 4.5°C
Dewpoint: -0.7°C
Humidity: 69%
Wind: S 16 km/h

Country House
Date: 11:00 AM EDT Thursday 2 April 2015
Condition: Sunny
Visibility: 16 km
Temperature: 7.9°C
Dewpoint: -1.1°C
Humidity: 53%
Wind: SSE 24 km/h


“The reason we all like to think so well of others is that we are all afraid for ourselves. The basis of optimism is sheer terror.”
Oscar Wilde
1854 – 1900

Hmmm… and those who dare to think not so well of others, are they the fearless members of society?

Friday The Thirteenth

Friday, February 13, 2015

I guess I’ve been lucky all through my life. Friday the thirteenth has not been a day related to bad luck in my world. With one notable exception, one person who was born on a Friday the Thirteenth was an exceptionally negative element in my life for many years, changing the course of my path significantly. All water under the bridge now, but it was difficult to cope with at the time. I need to acknowledge that one black mark against Friday the Thirteenth in my reverie, as I acknowledging reality, which although it can be harsh, is crucial to my mental health. For me, acknowledging harsh realities is not the same as giving them power to darken how I see the world. Quite the opposite really, placing them in light of day puts them where I can see them, so that they can be easily balanced with the realities that fill most of my life, which are positive. Dark forces rely on darkness and denial to maintain their power.

Yesterday Terra and Lares arrived early to drive me to my appointment with the Orthopaedic Surgeon. It was just my luck that the snow plough drove by just after they called to say they were on their way. There was a six inch pile of mushy slushy junk across the end of the driveway. If the weather report had predicted warmer temperatures for the day, I would have left it. But the thermometer was to drop during the day, and I didn’t want a huge ice barrier left across the end of the driveway during the cold snap. So out I want with my shovel. I cleared the end of the driveway and was just finishing with that when Terra and Lares drove up. They stopped the end of the driveway, jumped out, grabbed the snow shovel from me, and finished most of the driveway. Then Lares rummaged in the garage and found a bag of snow melt, brought it out and applied it to the shovelled area.

It was interesting, when I looked up from my shovel as they came down the street, Terra was driving, and Lares had his hand across his eyes and was shaking his head. I do believe he was shaking his head because I was out there shovelling snow so they could get in! Terra tells me I am very independent! I don’t think she always approves of that, but as long as I can, I will be doing things for myself. Then, when I can’t do things for myself, I will ask for help and be thankful for it!

My appointment was interesting and extremely beneficial. I was almost immediately escorted to an examination room, and interviewed for intake. The surgeon arrived within minutes and we reviewed my knee issue. He sent me next door for x-rays, and then I was back in the examination room. Soon afterward, it is a teaching hospital, the Intern arrived and reviewed the problem, did an examination, and left. A short time later he arrived back with the surgeon himself, to discuss the x-rays, and treatment.

The upshot is that I have early arthritis in the knee, and mild meniscus damage. Surgery would be premature. I am relieved! I opted for a shot of cortisone under the knee cap to aid in healing, which turned out to be the truly time consuming aspect of the visit. The cortisone was allergen free, but the anesthetic was not. Since it is a teaching hospital, this eventuality was not regarded as an annoyance, as it has in similar circumstances, in three other hospitals where I have received treatment. Just the opposite, the allergen was regarded as an interesting problem to solve! And they did solve it, eventually bringing an alternative anaesthetic from the pharmacy at the hospital. If they had not found the alternative anaesthetic, they were prepared to do the injection without an anaesthetic. I would have gone through with it even then, but was extremely relieved that they were able to locate an allergen free product. The shot did not hurt, just a very strong feeling of pressure. My knee felt almost immediately better. We had to stay at the hospital for an additional half an hour, waiting to ensure I did not have an allergic reaction, before leaving the proximity of the emergency department. All was well.

Ongoing, I will be taking a temporary course of painkillers, attending physiotherapy, and beginning to go for walks again, lengthening my walks slowly as the days go by. I have a follow-up appointment in two months, to see how this regime is working. The surgeon emphasized that the exercises provided to me by the physiotherapist are crucial, and must be done EVERY day. I find that much routine difficult to maintain, but the alternative is pain, so it is a priority!

Diesel was a bit disoriented when I arrived home. He really would like me to stay put, here in the house! It is partly because he likes to sleep on my bed, and could not. I put the cyclamen in the bedroom while I was away, and shut the door to keep him from getting into it. I spent a few hours with him sleeping on my lap; he felt a lot better for it.

This morning was an early one here at the little house in the city. At 4:09 a.m. I was ready to get up and get started with my day. I had a lot to accomplish during the morning hours. It was recycling day, so the recyclables had to be gathered and brought to the curb early. It was pay day, so bills needed to be paid. A computer support visit was scheduled for the morning hours, which I needed to prepare for. AND, the big event, Attila was packing the car and getting ready to travel to the little house in the city! Anticipation about Attila’s visit is probably what inspired the early rising this morning.

Cold! What a cold day! Tank started up without issue, the new battery is working well.

Saturday, February 14, 2015

Attila arrived safely on Friday afternoon, in time to share a hearty lunch!

He gave me a Valentine’s Day surprise. He made me Chocolates with cherry centres! They are my favourite!

Attila shovelled the snow off the garage roof, and it only took him about an hour. He started to carve out a path to the front door, and came in for a short break in the warmth of the house. While he was in the house the neighbour from across the street snuck over with his snowblower and cleared the path to the house! What a guy!

Sunday, February 15, 2015

We have been enjoying our time together immensely. Friday we did our shopping, and took the little car in for a lube and oil change, then we settled in for the weekend. It has been a cold one!

This morning there was another mound of snow across the driveway, but Attila took care of that in less than thirty minutes. We spent the rest of the day just hanging out, watching a movie, cooking, puttering. It was lovely.

Attila leave in the morning to return to the country house. The masonry heater will have discharged in his absence and he will need at least three full firings to recharge it. So, he must arrive home in time to chop the wood and accomplish two firings in the masonry heater tomorrow, before dark.

Diesel and I are going to miss Attila. Mist is going to be very glad to see him. She has been safe and warm in the country house, which is being heated with electric heaters in Attila’s absence. The cost of this visit will be high, as heating the country house with electricity, in this extreme cold, will be pricey. It was worth it though, to be able to spend a little time together.

Worldly Distractions


Little House in the City

-25°C (-13)
Date: 5:00 AM EST Friday 13 February 2015
Condition: Not observed
Pressure: 102.4 kPa
Tendency: rising
Temperature: -24.5°C
Dewpoint: -29.0°C
Humidity: 66%
Wind: W 6 km/h
Wind Chill: -30 (-22F)

-20°C (-4F)
Date: 8:00 PM EST Sunday 15 February 2015
Condition: Clear
Pressure: 102.6 kPa
Tendency: rising
Visibility: 24 km
Temperature: -20.4°C
Dewpoint: -27.7°C
Humidity: 53%
Wind: NNW 26 gust 38 km/h
Wind Chill: -32 (-25.6F)

Country House

-28°C (-18.4F)
Observed at: Muskoka Airport
Date: 5:00 AM EST Friday 13 February 2015
Condition: Clear
Pressure: 102.5 kPa
Visibility: 16 km
Temperature: -28.3°C
Dewpoint: -31.1°C
Humidity: 78%
Wind: NW 8 km/h
Wind Chill: -36 (-32.8F)

-24°C (-11.2F)
Date: 9:00 PM EST Sunday 15 February 2015
Condition: Clear
Pressure: 103.1 kPa
Visibility: 16 km
Temperature: -23.7°C
Dewpoint: -30.7°C
Humidity: 54%
Wind: WNW 9 km/h
Wind Chill: -31 (-23.8F)


“I have to say, this global “warming” is turning out to be quite a disappointment.”
Attila, after coming into the house after shovelling the drive, in the wind with a a -38 wind chill factor, February 2015.