The Fool

I’ve lived many lives in my time here on earth.  It has not made me wise.  My passions still run strong and wild.  I still live in a universe where anything is possible; despite my bouts of deep cynicism, passion for life and learning well up from deep within me, instantaneously and unbidden.  I fear I am a fool.

zucchini bloom

zucchini bloom

I’m not very afraid of being a fool though, not afraid enough to quell my passions or my imagination.

It is difficult to marry the fool and the counsel in me.  It is a life’s work to do so.

Attila and I continue to prepare for the unknown.

Attila paints, I type on the keyboard.  Nothing is visibly changing in our world at the moment, although the next few weeks will be eventful on a small scale.  We have purchased a little home near a city in Ontario.  It is in very, very poor condition.  It is in a very pleasant neighbourhood.  It will be a real “project”.

If Attila and/or I find work in that city, we will relocate and move to our little house.  If we don’t find work we shall remain in the wild, as here Attila has employment, as do I (of a sort).  However, we will have a project and a focus near a city, someplace that I can visit when the grip of cabin fever has me by the throat.

So, there we are, we’ve taken a step towards change.  It could end badly, that is true.  We think about that, but are not overwhelmed by the fact.  As Harriet said the other day, “plan for the worst, hope for the best”.  Exactly our philosophy.

Painting the main living area of our home is a miserable job, particularly in the hot, humid weather we have been having.  Attila continues to plug away at it though, every evening after work he gathers all his equipment and his paint can and gets to work.  At bedtime he gathers together his equipment, stores it all away and drops into the bed for a well deserved rest.  The estimated timeline for the project is a week.

I keep sending out job applications, now focused entirely on the city near our little house.  Some positive responses have come our way, but nothing we can take to the bank.

Terra began her new job this week.  Congratulations Terra!  The first few weeks of a new job are always a challenge, so much change.  I know Terra will rise to the occasion and will be breezing through her work days in very short order.  Terra possesses a great deal of determination.

Luna and Janus are busy with their jobs and visiting friends and Janus’ family; this keeps them very busy.  They are all healthy and happy.

We are expecting thunderstorms this morning, so I’ll get this post up without further ado.

Worldly Distractions

Weather

22 °C
Condition:Mostly Cloudy
Pressure:101.7 kPa
Visibility:16 km
Temperature:22.0°C
Dewpoint:20.1°C
Humidity:89 %
Wind:SSE 15 km/h
Humidex:30

Quote

“It is better to keep your mouth closed and let people think you are a fool than to open it and remove all doubt.”
Mark Twain
(1835 – 1910)
A missed opportunity!

Spit and Polish

Attila and I are still hard at work preparing our home for new owners. Today Attila installed new light fixtures in a dimly lit stairwell, it makes a spectacular difference. He continues to tidy up the gardens, and continues to maintain the yard.

Zucchini Blossom

I baked bread today. It has been hot, it was hot today, but we needed bread. We can find bread that I can eat, but we have to drive for over half an hour to find a store that stocks it. Nothing for it but to put the Nesco out in the porch and bake the bread outdoors. In this heat I will not use the indoor oven for any reason at all!

I’ve been cleaning cobwebs in and around the screened in porch, they accumulate quickly. I also have setup a daily routine for myself, where I make the bed, wash and dry the dishes, shower, do laundry, sweep and do a quick clean in the bathrooms in the early morning. I feel I need to get these tasks done before eight in the morning, as I might be called out to work, and someone might want to look at the house before I could get those things accomplished.

The most difficult challenge is keeping my desk clear! I accumulate all sorts of odds and ends while working on my projects throughout the day, usually this clutter is piled high on my desk. Not anymore! Nothing but clear desk surfaces now. However, I have to really work at it to keep the clutter from reestablishing itself.

This evening Attila begins painting the main living area of the house. We have been here for over six years and are just getting to this project. Better late than never I suppose. It will take Attila more than a week, working every night after work until he falls asleep, to complete this task.

We are working hard right now on our house. Soon, very soon, our focus will shift to where we are going. I know that as soon as that happens I will lose interest in our present home. Hopefully we will have made all the necessary tweaks and setup the necessary routines before our focus shifts.

Worldly Distractions

Weather

27 °C
6:00 PM EDT Sunday 11 July 2010
Condition:Mostly Cloudy
Pressure:101.0 kPa
Visibility:16 km
Temperature:27.0°C
Dewpoint:15.9°C
Humidity:50 %
Wind:S 15 km/h
Humidex:32

Quote

“Remember when life’s path is steep to keep your mind even.”
Horace
(65 BC – 8 BC)

Moment by Moment

My journal is called Page by Page.  Right now I’m taking life Moment by Moment.  The decision to move has precipitated a vast amount of activity.  We have “decluttered” and cleaned and preened; and we are still at it.

Sunny Poplar in July

Funny old world.  As we prepare this house for new owners, I am feeling more and more attachment and affection for it.  These sentiments are not new, but they have come to the forefront now that our decision to leave has been made.  I do love this house, as I loved the little house in the City that we lived in before moving here.

Tonight Attila is using his bandsaw to cut an old TV tower into sections small enough to transport to the recycling plant by car.  We inherited the TV tower, which we removed from the side of the house and stored behind the house until now.

I am working at the little shop tomorrow, the third day this year.  It isn’t the happiest place this year, I suspect business is not as good as had been hoped.

The heat wave broke overnight and this evening is mild, breezy and just about perfect.  The mosquitoes were decimated by the heat and there are very few to contend with during the day.  I even ventured onto the deck earlier this evening to prune some of my deck garden plants.  I was not bothered by even one mosquito!

I have gone into overdrive with the job applications.  I am sending out two or three well crafted cover letters and resumes every day.  What I find shocking is that suddenly the world is polite, the way it used to be.  For no reason that I can explain, people have suddenly learned manners.  I have received acknowledgements that applications were received, that has not happened but a few times over the last fifteen years.  I am receiving responses to my applications, letting me know that interviews will be scheduled in a few weeks; again, this is new to me.  All of this doesn’t mean that one will be awarded an interview or the desired position.  What it does mean though, is that the process of looking for work ceases to be a soulless, draining experience.  Thank goodness for small mercies.

Worldly Distractions

Weather

23 °C
Condition:Partly Cloudy
Pressure:101.1 kPa
Visibility:16 km
Temperature:23.0°C
Dewpoint:20.8°C
Humidity:87 %
Wind:W 13 km/h
Humidex:31

Quote

“We all have strength enough to endure the misfortunes of others.”
Francois de La Rochefoucauld
(1613 – 1680)
There are so many ways to interpret this quotation.
I had to laugh as I thought of the certain way that some people are able to endure the misfortune of others. Black humour. When presented with someone else’s plain bad luck, they respond by saying, “Life is what you make it.” I’ve never heard this from someone who actually had to overcome serious obstacles to success; in my experience this saying is always mouthed by those who succeeded by merely riding the wave of their good fortune, attributing all of their good fortune to their own prowess [hubris]. These people would consistently respond to the misfortune of others with “life is what you make it”. I’ve actually grown to despise the statement “life is what you make it”, although I do acknowledge that in certain contexts it reveals the power of positive thinking.

Nodding Off

A brief entry is better than no entry at all, or so I tell myself.

Attila and I have made the decision to move.  This is not a simple project, nor is the decision made without some regrets.  We love our home, the wildlife and the peace around us.  However, we agree that another winter in the wild is not desirable.

What we have been up to is “decluttering” and doing minor repairs and inexpensive upgrades, in order to sell the property.

We have decided to try to locate nearer Luna and Terra, and are actively looking for work in that area.  The physical landscape there is not as beautiful as it is here, but the human landscape is much healthier.

Preparing for the move is occupying all of our free time.

We are well into a heat wave at the moment, it was 32C today, in the shade, and very humid to boot.  The house was closed up against the sun, so it remained relatively comfortable.  However, it is not cooling down a lot at night, so that every morning the temperature is a little higher than the morning before.  We are to have two more days of this heat, before the weather breaks and cooler air moves into the area.

I had made arrangements with my Uncle to visit him with my scanner and laptop.  He welcomed the visit and I would have been able to create copies of valuable family documents.  Alas, when I unpacked the scanner for a test run, it was not functioning.  I had to postpone the visit, which was very disappointing.

Between preparing for a move, and the odd day of work, I find myself exhausted most of the time.  When Attila and I sit down at the end of the day for a quiet visit and chat, I fall asleep on my chair.

Worldly Distractions

Weather

30 °C
Condition:Sunny
Pressure:101.6 kPa
Visibility:16 km
Temperature:30.0°C
Dewpoint:18.7°C
Humidity:50 %
Wind:W 8 km/h
Humidex:37

Quote

“All growth is a leap in the dark, a spontaneous unpremeditated act without the benefit of experience.”
Henry Miller
(1891 – 1980)

Beginnings Without Endings

Terra’s graduation was a big event for our family, with Lares, Attila and I, Luna and Janus, Imp, Elf and Tink in attendance. Good wishes were sent from Terra and Luna’s Grandma, Aunts, Uncles and cousins. Terra accepted her Diplomas and several Awards, one of them for Excellence in her studies. Well Done Terra! And a heart felt thanks to Lares who has Terra’s back, it warms her mother’s heart.

Attila and I are busy contemplating making changes in our life. We love our home, and the beautiful landscape around us, but it is remote from everyone Attila and I cherish.  We are initiating change.

Yesterday was very hot and humid. Today is cool and breezy. The sun was shining this morning, but is now well hidden behind a ceiling of grey clouds.

I have been applying for work this morning; it is always a dreaded activity, but it must be done. Attila has his resumes at the ready.

We are tired and happy, after our weekend away celebrating Terra’s graduation.

Worldly Distractions

Weather

16 °C
Condition:Partly Cloudy
Pressure:101.4 kPa
Visibility:16 km
Temperature:16.0°C
Dewpoint:6.5°C
Humidity:53 %
Wind:W 21 gust 35 km/

Quote

“Faith is, at one and the same time, absolutely necessary and altogether impossible.”
Stanislaw Lem
(1921 – 2006)