Another Day

6:00 a.m.

I awoke at 3:35 a.m., too late to have a drink of water, too early to start the day. I have to abstain from drinking or eating onward from 3:30 a.m., I have my x-ray today, and that is the instruction for the procedure. The appointment is in the city, so I have planned a bunch of odd jobs to accomplish while I am there. Of course this means that I need to bring a packed breakfast, and will also be bringing snacks, and lots of water to drink when the test is done!

I still have two and a half hours to put in before I leave to drive to the appointment. I find remembering not to drink or eat, when I am tired, and thirsty, and hungry, makes time pass slowly.

7:20 a.m.

What a long, long morning! I’ve paid bills, done dishes, made my bed, swept the floor… still looking for tasks that won’t need my ongoing attention. I can leave for my appointment in one hour and ten minutes. Counting!

1:45 p.m.

Home again! As it turned out, the test was an ultrasound, not an x-ray. When the appointment was setup, the woman on the telephone said x-ray, but she was referring to the name of the lab, shortening it to just x-ray, when it was actually x-ray and ultrasound. This ultrasound was quite different than the one I had a year and a half ago, the technician checked out a lot more than was investigated in the previous test. Worrying, but perhaps not, could have been routine, she wasn’t saying. I’ll have to keep an eye on getting in to the walk-in clinic to hear the results. The technician did say that gallstones and cysts seldom just go away, I am hoping they haven’t gained any ground!

There are big fluffy clouds floating across the sky, outside my window. Occasionally they come between me and the sunshine, running interference. But those rays of light always return, if not today, then another day.

Coming to terms with this marriage breakdown is the challenge of a lifetime! I am up and down and all around, hopeful one minute, in despair the next, then feeling, and thinking, nothing at all for periods of time, which is sweet relief. This first year is going to be doozy! Everything in life serves to remind me that nothing is the same! After going through all of life’s ups and downs for a year, there will be familiar territory to return to, and some of what is up in the air now will have been worked through. But right now I am busy charting that new territory, making slow progress as I create a path through the murk.

Worldly Distractions


What could it mean when someone invites you to an event, even though they know that you would not, and perhaps could not, accept the invitation?
e.g. Inviting a person in a wheelchair to a party on the fourth floor of a building with no elevator or ramps, and narrow doors.


Date: 7:00 AM EST Thursday 1 February 2018
Condition: Mostly Cloudy
Pressure: 100.7 kPa
Tendency: Steady
Temperature: 0.6°C
Dew point: -2.9°C
Humidity: 77%
Wind: S 30 km/h
Visibility: 24 km


“I don’t want to be soothed with snake-oil promises. I want the truth. I want to feel either relief when I weather the storm more easily than I anticipated or composed acceptance when it’s as bad as I was warned it could be.”
Aunt Beulah


There is flooding all around us! It began to rain on Thursday night, then we had heavy rainfall all day Friday, and it has rained all day today. Luckily we had installed a sump pump when the water main was broken in front of our house, which is carrying away the water accumulating below the floor of our basement. So far we are unscathed.

Many roads are closed, basements flooded, and the creeks and streams are running deep and fast and dangerous.


A typical breakfast. The muffin is chock full of goodness, oats, sunflower seeds, flax seeds, raisins, an egg, crushed pineapple, desiccated coconut; it does also include a few tablespoons of chocolate chips, and I add two tablespoons of brown sugar to the recipe, so it is just a wee bit sinful. I measure the water I drink at breakfast, to make sure I get the correct amount recommended for taking the medication which must be taken with food and water.

On Thursday Terra called me and asked me if I wanted to take a trip to IKEA with her and Sunny and Sky. Who could say no, not me! Off we went and had a lovely time walking for hours and hours to see all the sights. Sunny is crawling now, and can pull herself up into a standing position. Somehow she discovered how to pull on her harness in the stroller, hard enough so that the back of the seat rose with her so that she could stand holding onto the back of the seat in front of her, Sky’s seat in the stroller. She stood, hands gripped tightly on the back of the front seat, little eyes and a nose just peeking above it, watching everything around her. So tiny and determined! Sky was content to sit in his seat, charming passers by with his big blue eyes and captivating smile. It is so much fun to walk around with these little characters. Sunny wasn’t feeling well on the drive back, I think she overdid it standing the whole time we were strolling through the store. Terra said she recovered quickly once she got her home, changed her diaper and clothes and cuddled for a while.

Friday I had my doctor’s appointment to discuss my bone density test and ultrasound. My bone density is normal, that is a blessing. The ultrasound showed cysts in one kidney, and some very large gallstones. Neither issue is serious, but he will keep an eye on the kidney cysts, so I have another ultrasound in six months time. More new tests though, to explore those chest pains. Looking at my back and stomach next to see if all is well there. I am glad of the opportunity for such a thorough investigation into these chest pains, but I will be glad when we establish that they signify nothing!

Worldly Distractions


Lightning Light Rain
Date: 8:00 PM EDT Saturday 6 May 2017
Condition: Light Rain
Pressure: 99.4 kPa
Tendency: Rising
Temperature: 8.2°C
Dew point: 7.9°C
Humidity: 98%
Wind: W 5 km/h
Visibility: 2 km


“I am glad your test results are good, they can always find little things that are not like when you were twenty.”

My Mom, what she wrote to me in response to my medical news of the day.