Two men who had loved me, and I them, said interesting things to me, things that haunt me past their life spans. How lucky are we that have experienced raw, passionate, respectful, and honest love. These men cannot interact directly with me now, we will take this up again when I too cross the river.

Of the academy, success, and scholarly achievement: “It isn’t what you think it is.”
I’ve always wondered how another person really knows what you think things are, but no matter, it was sincere and honest feedback about what he saw in me, coming from the heart. His life was spent as a respected scholar, so he knew a few things about the academy. So precious.

Of the universe in general: “I hope you never find out.”
My love, I’ve always known, I have grieved, but I have not despaired.



Date: 2:00 PM EDT Wednesday 11 March 2020
Condition: Cloudy
Pressure: 102.3 kPa
Tendency: Falling
Temperature: -1.8°C
Dew point: -8.1°C
Humidity: 62%
Wind: ENE 10 km/h
Wind Chill: -5
Visibility: 24 km


“One single grateful thought raised to heaven is the most perfect prayer.”
G. E. Lessing
1729 – 1781


  1. Teri

    I’m not completely sure but it feels as though condolences are in order? If so, I’m so sorry for your loss. But then again, you were lucky enough to have gained something special from both of them.

  2. Sandy

    It sounds like you shared a deep love with both of these men. What a gift that is ~ to love intensely and be loved in return! I’m also sorry if you’ve suffered a loss. I hope you remember only the good memories with both of these men.

  3. Sandy, how lucky I am that I have such wonderful memories, and I still feel the love, deeply, somehow that has not disappeared. The losses were many years ago now, but these men remain companions of sorts, to this day. I remember the good and the bad, but there isn’t any pain in remembering the bad, I’ve forgiven it all, long ago, them and myself. Thinking of them, running over my mind what they might have had to say about certain things, brings me joy.

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