Today was a restless day. So much so that in the afternoon I made a sudden decision to head for the city, to attend a women’s group. It turned out that I liked it, and joined. It was a serendipitous discovery, this group. Just what I needed. Sometimes the universe gives you what you need, and this was one of those miraculous times.
This evening Attila and I continued to talk, and have put ourselves into a holding pattern as we are. This is more comfortable for me, I welcome the stability of the status quo, not a great status quo, but a temporarily stable one, which gives me time and space to establish a world away from home.
On the domestic front, a batch of vegetable soup sits on the range, to be completed tomorrow. My crochet blanket project is coming along, just about through the second ball of yarn, then on to the next, there will be eight balls of yarn used.
Sleep, or lack of, is still an issue. I will try an increasing the amount of melatonin, in a last attempt at using an over the counter remedy. If that doesn’t work, then next week I will visit the walk-in clinic and explore my options. If I feel too tired to drive, Attila will take sick leave and provide transportation. I will get this sleep thing sorted.
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“Feel the fear and do it anyway.”
Susan Jeffers
Glad you found a good group. A much as online friends can help, sometimes there’s nothing like being in the same space as others where one can have the benefit of the full communication experience.
That physical fight or flight is a witch when neither one is the right answer. I bet that once you get it stopped and can get some sleep, doing whatever you need to do that, you’ll be able to keep it under control, especially with the holding pattern in place.
Wendy, I’ve been extremely fortunate to have online friends, the digital age opened up whole new world of wonderful people in my life. I also crave the experience of a mutually shared physical space, there is a certain energy to it, when it is a good space, that runs right through me with threads of light, and the as you point out, the full commuication experience is very rich.
Yes, fight or flight is not a good thing to experience. I think you are right about the sleep being the key to controlling it. The holding pattern is a welcome relief!
How great to find a women’s group that you like. Serendipity is wonderful. A retired friend of mine decided to join a knitting group to get out of the house. Her husband plays with toy trains, which is evidently a big hobby for men. Anyway, she learned how to knit but also made a few friends. They go to dinner and to political marches etc.
Once you get medication to help you sleep through the night again, you’re going to feel much better, I think.
(((Hugs)))
I do hope you get some sleep soon. A good deep sleep where you wake up and have sleep lines on your face and drool on your pillow. Actually, weed also helps me with sleep. I use the oil which is legal here and I have an prescription of sorts. The prescription is for 1 mg which wouldn’t have much of an affect on my cat. I take a 20/20 and it helps with them anxiety that keeps me awake. One day I will do a post on my road from vehemently protesting the use of marijuana in any situation to a regular user.
What will happen to your blanket when it’s done? Do you make them for family? I really want to learn to crochet but I need somoene to actually teach me.
When you say “eight” balls of the yarn for the blanket, do you mean 8 cakes? Or have you wound the cakes into individual balls? I can’t remember how many cakes it took me to make my cake-blankets… maybe it was that many. I love that you and A are “talking” things over these days. I wonder if/when he will ever realize what a good thing he’s had with you all these years and change his tune – again?
Sandy, what a lovely story to relate to me right now, so hopeful! Sleeping is my main challenge right now, so I think you are right, getting adequate rest is going to make a big difference! (((Hugs)))
Birdie, weed is an option, I see the signs about it posted at the doctor’s office. When I go in I’ll be exploring all options, including weed, which if I think about it, might be healthier than some of the purely chemical source options.
When I started the blanket, before my domestic upheaval began, it was going to be for Attila. I might still give it to him, time will tell. I haven’t a project in mind when it is done, but when it is nearly done I’ll be exploring ideas about what to crochet next. I like having it there by my chair, ready to spend time with me.
I learned from youtube videos for beginners, although I think there are things that would be easier to “get” if a person were watching you and giving tips based on what they see you doing. Bex inspired me to begin, she made some lovely blankets that I admired, and also mentored me when I needed it, to get me going.
Bex, I do mean 8 cakes, I did not rewind them.
Attila and I do talk, and it is a lot more communication going on now than there ever was before, he is speaking up. I don’t know where it will all lead, but I do know that the communication, although intense, will serve me well no matter what the eventual outcome. I love Attila, have ever since I met him, and will probably always love him, regardless of how things work out.
I’m glad you found a group you like. I sure hope you get good sleep and that the good sleep becomes the regular pattern.
Joan, thank you! Finding the group just sort of fell into my lap, the way things do sometimes.
Glad to hear you found a group you like! How did you search for the group? Seems everything I see is based on things like walking in the morning (my body doesn’t handle morning exercise well) or things like playing cards.
Teri, I look at the internet daily, keeping an eye open for things that seem interesting to me, I found the group on the internet, can’t remember how though, I wander all over the place on the internet, no particular logic to it.