Moving Along Nicely

I’ve worked every day since April 25th. Still moving along nicely. What I am thinking about this morning, May 10, 2011 at 6:15 a.m.: Odd to think, really, that what other people see when they look at you is an image you seldom take the time to explore, and can only do so in a mirror. Our natural state is to not see ourselves as other’s see us, but to see ourselves as we are reflected in the reactions of others. In my youth there was tremendous pressure to wear makeup and pay close attention to clothing and how one appeared to others. It felt unnatural, I think it was unnatural. I was not a woman who appreciated whistles or comments of approval on my appearance, always found these things insulting and demeaning. I abandoned interest in such things as makeup and dress codes when I was in my early twenties, never looked back, never regretted it. I think we are all round pegs being hammered into square holes. The material we are made of determines how misshapen the life path becomes as the pressure is applied. Now I must get ready to leave for work. And later this week, … Continue reading

Catching Up

I ended up working on Sunday, Mother’s Day. It wasn’t for too long, but it meant that I didn’t get to disengage from the demands of paid labour. I did get to talk with the girls, and my Mom, and my sisters, so it was a wonderful Mother’s Day. I am looking forward to next weekend, when I hope to have a few days off. I am not working tonight, so when I got home from my full-time job I was able to sit down and put my feet up. Luxury! We had a beautiful sunny day today, warm too, or so I’m told. It is still lovely out there, even now as the evening creeps up on us. It is time to let the masonry heater discharge for the spring and summer season. With great relief, we will no longer have daily firings. Attila has been taking down small dead trees from the back of the property to keep us warm this spring, and at last his nightly forays can be abandoned. We have ordered firewood for next winter’s heat, and it will arrive after the load limits for the roads are lifted. Then the task of moving all … Continue reading

Old Gal

What a week! I worked 40 hours at my full-time job and 32 hours at my part-time job, that is 72 hours. Pretty good for an old gal like me, I reckon. I am very tired! I walked for at least four hours every day. Up steep hills on gravel, down rickety stairs to the bottom of small cliffs, and then back up again. I walked over fallen branches and through mud and water. I walked and walked and walked! Today I received my first black fly bite. The season has begun! I have a big red mark on my arm where I was bitten. Luckily it doesn’t itch, but it is ugly and will take weeks to heal and disappear. There is still some snow left on the north side of hills shaded by hemlock, and the black flies have started before we’ve seen the last of it. Tonight is the first time in a week that I have had any down time at all; unless of course I consider sleeping down time. Attila and I had wanted to visit the little house in the city today, but I worked all day. I am exhausted and have decided that … Continue reading

on the run

Yesterday was the first day I worked both the full-time and the part-time job on the same day. A bit tiring. This morning I’m writing this on the run, as I prepare to leave for work, my full-time job. Still enjoying it, very much. Henry and Em were here on Sunday to pick up some items I ordered for them. We had a nice chat, and then we found a black fly on my arm! NOOOOOO! Not yet, the last of the snow just melted. The flies aren’t thick yet though, which is a blessing. The nice thing about black flies is that if they follow you indoors they head for the windows to escape and lose all interest in biting you. Still cloudy today, rain expected. Worldly Distractions Weather 1 °C Condition: Cloudy Pressure: 102.3 kPa Visibility: 16 km Temperature: 1.0°C Dewpoint: 0.7°C Humidity: 98 % Wind: NNE 4 km/h Quote “Whenever I dwell for any length of time on my own shortcomings, they gradually begin to seem mild, harmless, rather engaging little things, not at all like the staring defects in other people’s characters.” Margaret Halsey  Note Margaret Halsey ” American writer who lived in the United Kingdom … Continue reading

Gaining Ground

I’ve reached a decision. The next time that the new-part time job drives me to distraction my one-week notice will be submitted. Long hours are one thing, gratuitous stress is quite another. One month of full-time and part-time work will bring Attila and I into a state of solvency, then we will likely be able to survive through next winter at a basic level. I will feel a lot more relaxed when a state of solvency has been reached. In the meantime I will breath deeply, pet Mist, smile at Attila and leave the rest to fate. Soon though, the tomorrows of our life, at least in the short term, will cease to loom ominous. Today I am preparing for my work week at the new full-time job. I am looking forward to the week. I have my clothing hanging in the closet ready to go; my new lunch box has its very own juice bottle, spoon, fork, snack jar, hot pad and freezer pack. I have enough gas in the car to make the journey to work on Monday morning. I’m good to go. I’ll never be prepared for the new part-time job, as a portion of the preparation … Continue reading