A Scattered Day

I am hoping to use developing Plan B as a form of recreation. Since at the moment the need for it is not imminent, I can approach it as an intellectual game, which is something I cannot do effectively when the need is real. So far I have determined that in reasonable neighbourhoods, I can… Continue reading A Scattered Day

Odd Period Of Time

It is an odd period of time. When I am busy with something, I forget that Attila wanted to move out, and everything seems as it was, for a brief period of time. Then suddenly it doesn’t seem the same at all, something feels wrong, and I feel awful. Back and forth and back and… Continue reading Odd Period Of Time

Is This Really Happening?

I had a completely sleepless night, and feel awful this morning. Attila left for work an hour early, he is avoiding eye contact now. He is making arrangements today to rent a room to move into, not sure when he will move out, probably soon. He has a lot of good intentions on making sure… Continue reading Is This Really Happening?

Breakfast Bomb

If you read this blog on a regular basis, sit down. This morning before breakfast Attila told me he was going to move out, he is leaving me. I did not see this coming. He said he thought of it three seconds before he said it, and he means it. The ride has begun, all… Continue reading Breakfast Bomb